Chasing Happiness

How would  you like to explain things going in your mind when all you wanted is someone to hold your hand and say.... "All is well"? I've always wanted to chase something and I always wanted to finish with a bang but how can I chase something that I cannot even see?

Just like putting a tattoo on my left shoulder. I always wanted to have one and I settled for a henna just because I am too scared to do the real one. It was just something that I wanted to do with my nephew and niece and I realized, here I am again doing something that I myself cannot even see. They said it looked nice but I cannot well appreciate it that much because its in my back.

Just like being Happy. I always wanted to be happy and I've done a lot of stupid things just to see it happening. I chased happiness but I was not able to cope up. I wanted to be in this state. I wanted to be in this state. Right now. And I don't want to chase it anymore. I don't want to see it. I want to feel it chasing me. I am my own happiness and I want to be happy always.....